Where have I been??? Well....here and there and everywhere *but* the Blogger community.
I am alive and well for the most part. I am cut off from most of the family. Less drama in my life = less stress for me. Sad in some ways. Good in others. This all happened shortly after we downsized from the big house to the smaller apartment.
The downsize / move was supposed to exclude one member of my family, but it didn't. That is a long story I will have to share some day.
I will be moving again this coming summer. Not out of Pennsylvania but further northwest. I hope to get out of PA once my daughter is over 18.
The cold winter months are so blah. Granted....it is beautiful watching the snow fall and lay on everything. But, traveling in it is a whole different story!!! YUCK!!!
Well......I am going to have to end it here. I am at work.
More to come later......
NO MORE APPETITE FOR AOL This blog came about after I got kicked to the curb by AOL. JLand is but a memory...but a very good one. I have found some of my JLand neighbors but I hope to find them all.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Daughter of a Predator
I read a post over at Kelly's blog- http://kelly-reminiscenceoftheyesteryears.blogspot.com/
She posted about a neighborhood being changed because a pedophile was now in the neighborhood.
I am the daughter of a man who did terrible things. He did them against his adopted daughters. He did nothing to me. He has been in prison since 1997.
He was OK'd for parole August 2008. If he could get a Home Plan approved he would be able to get out. He is in terrible health. He has been on the medical ward of the prison for over a year. He is diabetic, has a deteriorating hip and is in a wheelchair. He is an old man now.
He inflicted things on my sisters- added to what was already inflicted upon them in their biological home as well as the foster homes they were in. Totally fucked up their lives. Took their innocence away and skewered their minds. They don't trust easily. My one sister will never find love. She finds only men who use her. My other sister took a long time to find love.
I have always thought that men....the pedophiles who fuck up children should be castrated and thrown into prison to rot for life.
That scenario was abruptly changed when the predator, the man I loved, trusted and looked up to turned out to be my father.
My mother tossed him to the curb and stuck by both of my sisters. I was put on a fence- but yet expected to defend my sisters wholeheartedly. My brother was a lost soul on the whole thing. He didn't know what to do. There was no handbook as to what we were supposed to do. I talked to my sisters. I wouldn't get anything specific from them. I talked to my father and didn't get clear answers from him- except that he admitted to doing wrong. He wouldn't specify what he exactly did- he just vehemently denied doing EVERYTHING they said he did. My thought was- you did wrong with the very first thing you did- there fore guilty for everything all the same.
I was asked to testify by the prosecution. I did. I was cut out of my father's side of the family for the statements that I made and testimony that I gave. I could not lie.
He was found guilty in a court of law. The prosecution would cut no deals to lesson his sentence. He was sentenced 10-20 years.
He is a shell of the man he once was. I had such a hard time with forgiveness for a long time. I have forgiven him, but have not forgotten all he did that shattered our family.
He may never be able to get out of that prison because of the restrictions the parole board has. He may die where he is.
I totally understand the feelings of those who oppose a sexual predator / pedophile from living in their community. But I am also on the other side.
I want him to get a second chance. I want him to get back into society. I don't want him to die in that prison.
I don't know what that says about me. I can understand both sides of the situation- and yet it is different because the man is my father.
Does that make me a terrible person?
I sure hope not.
She posted about a neighborhood being changed because a pedophile was now in the neighborhood.
I am the daughter of a man who did terrible things. He did them against his adopted daughters. He did nothing to me. He has been in prison since 1997.
He was OK'd for parole August 2008. If he could get a Home Plan approved he would be able to get out. He is in terrible health. He has been on the medical ward of the prison for over a year. He is diabetic, has a deteriorating hip and is in a wheelchair. He is an old man now.
He inflicted things on my sisters- added to what was already inflicted upon them in their biological home as well as the foster homes they were in. Totally fucked up their lives. Took their innocence away and skewered their minds. They don't trust easily. My one sister will never find love. She finds only men who use her. My other sister took a long time to find love.
I have always thought that men....the pedophiles who fuck up children should be castrated and thrown into prison to rot for life.
That scenario was abruptly changed when the predator, the man I loved, trusted and looked up to turned out to be my father.
My mother tossed him to the curb and stuck by both of my sisters. I was put on a fence- but yet expected to defend my sisters wholeheartedly. My brother was a lost soul on the whole thing. He didn't know what to do. There was no handbook as to what we were supposed to do. I talked to my sisters. I wouldn't get anything specific from them. I talked to my father and didn't get clear answers from him- except that he admitted to doing wrong. He wouldn't specify what he exactly did- he just vehemently denied doing EVERYTHING they said he did. My thought was- you did wrong with the very first thing you did- there fore guilty for everything all the same.
I was asked to testify by the prosecution. I did. I was cut out of my father's side of the family for the statements that I made and testimony that I gave. I could not lie.
He was found guilty in a court of law. The prosecution would cut no deals to lesson his sentence. He was sentenced 10-20 years.
He is a shell of the man he once was. I had such a hard time with forgiveness for a long time. I have forgiven him, but have not forgotten all he did that shattered our family.
He may never be able to get out of that prison because of the restrictions the parole board has. He may die where he is.
I totally understand the feelings of those who oppose a sexual predator / pedophile from living in their community. But I am also on the other side.
I want him to get a second chance. I want him to get back into society. I don't want him to die in that prison.
I don't know what that says about me. I can understand both sides of the situation- and yet it is different because the man is my father.
Does that make me a terrible person?
I sure hope not.
Happenings in my life
Life has been busy for me.
My son is now 18. Free from the controls of his parents. Making his mistakes and hopefully he will learn from them. He is so much like me it is truly scary. I just hope he grabs hold of opportunities that are presented to him and runs with them. I only wish him success in his life.
My daughter is now 12. In between child and teen. Tough year for her. So many hormonal changes and her desire to fit in. Although she never has had a problem with popularity among her peers. Thank goodness!!! My childhood on the other hand was nothing I would ever want to repeat.
Life for her has had an added change to it. The home she knew for 11 + years of life is no longer. Based on decisions her father and I have made.... we no longer have our home. The neighborhood we lived in was declining. We couldn't sell our home. Our financial mess wasn't something we could climb out of. We downsized into an apartment for now.
Our path has changed a bit. Hopefully things will improve in our future.
Today will be busy day with Philadelphia Eagles playing the Giants, the Vikings playing the Packers and then the World Series tonight.
Go Eagles and Phillies!!!!! Oh.....and go Vikings!!!!!
More to come later.........
My son is now 18. Free from the controls of his parents. Making his mistakes and hopefully he will learn from them. He is so much like me it is truly scary. I just hope he grabs hold of opportunities that are presented to him and runs with them. I only wish him success in his life.
My daughter is now 12. In between child and teen. Tough year for her. So many hormonal changes and her desire to fit in. Although she never has had a problem with popularity among her peers. Thank goodness!!! My childhood on the other hand was nothing I would ever want to repeat.
Life for her has had an added change to it. The home she knew for 11 + years of life is no longer. Based on decisions her father and I have made.... we no longer have our home. The neighborhood we lived in was declining. We couldn't sell our home. Our financial mess wasn't something we could climb out of. We downsized into an apartment for now.
Our path has changed a bit. Hopefully things will improve in our future.
Today will be busy day with Philadelphia Eagles playing the Giants, the Vikings playing the Packers and then the World Series tonight.
Go Eagles and Phillies!!!!! Oh.....and go Vikings!!!!!
More to come later.........
Free Press
Strangled and stifled by the government?
That is what has been proposed by our government. Shut America up and force feed the American people what THEY want us to hear.
Every day you can get up, fire up your lap top or turn on your computer and go anywhere you choose to on the internet. You can express your opinions on blogs or journals online. This is your right. Your expression of FREE SPEECH.
The President wants government control over what we hear, what we see and what we say. The President wants to fundamentally transform America. How? Control the free internet. Get rid of the free market.
Don't think that is true? Go to glennbeck.com or go to savetheinternet.com or freepress.net.
Glenn Beck take everything, breaks it down and demonstrates through use of videos and snippets of what those in positions of power near and dear to the White House have said. It is truly eye opening and scary to think that the government is moving into change that is not good for our country.
Savetheinternet.com has information about how that needs to happen. The FCC is working on developing new rules to safeguard thefree open nature of the internet. It is being talked about as "net neutrality". End users will have unfettered acces to all "lawful online content and applications." Government controlled access to the internet. Does that make you feel like it is open access to the internet? Would you have free choice?
Freepress.net. The opening statement at the top of the page states: reform media. transform democracy. There is an article on this site that talks about the future of online speech depending on net neutrality. The White House is calling for free and open internet.They even went so far as to endorse a bill called the Internet Freedom Preservation Act. European Union adopted a policy that rejects the principles in the White House's bill. For example: Some foreign countries identify banned websited and arrest internet users that go on them. This is Internet Censorship.
Go to freepress.net for some eye opening articles and blogs the explains the importance of net neutrality. Will you find yourself agreeing with it? Do you want policing of the internet by the government- deciding what "lawful" sites you can go to? Do you want the government to restrict internet access? OR do you want your freedom to access what you want when you want to?
Our Founding Fathers had strong beliefs and made statements regarding freedoms.
"Without Freedom of Thought there can be no such Thing as Wisdom; and no such Thing as Public Liberty, without Freedom of Speech."
Benjamin Franklin, writing as Silence Dogood, No. 8, July 9, 1722
"If the freedom of speech is taken away then dumb and silent we may be led, like sheep to the slaughter."
George Washington
"But a Constitution of Government once changed from Freedom, can never be restored. Liberty, once lost, is lost forever. "
John Adams, letter to Abigail Adams, July 17, 1775
"Those who stand for nothing fall for anything." - Alexander Hamilton
That is just a few of them.
Let me know what you think.
That is what has been proposed by our government. Shut America up and force feed the American people what THEY want us to hear.
Every day you can get up, fire up your lap top or turn on your computer and go anywhere you choose to on the internet. You can express your opinions on blogs or journals online. This is your right. Your expression of FREE SPEECH.
The President wants government control over what we hear, what we see and what we say. The President wants to fundamentally transform America. How? Control the free internet. Get rid of the free market.
Don't think that is true? Go to glennbeck.com or go to savetheinternet.com or freepress.net.
Glenn Beck take everything, breaks it down and demonstrates through use of videos and snippets of what those in positions of power near and dear to the White House have said. It is truly eye opening and scary to think that the government is moving into change that is not good for our country.
Savetheinternet.com has information about how that needs to happen. The FCC is working on developing new rules to safeguard thefree open nature of the internet. It is being talked about as "net neutrality". End users will have unfettered acces to all "lawful online content and applications." Government controlled access to the internet. Does that make you feel like it is open access to the internet? Would you have free choice?
Freepress.net. The opening statement at the top of the page states: reform media. transform democracy. There is an article on this site that talks about the future of online speech depending on net neutrality. The White House is calling for free and open internet.They even went so far as to endorse a bill called the Internet Freedom Preservation Act. European Union adopted a policy that rejects the principles in the White House's bill. For example: Some foreign countries identify banned websited and arrest internet users that go on them. This is Internet Censorship.
Go to freepress.net for some eye opening articles and blogs the explains the importance of net neutrality. Will you find yourself agreeing with it? Do you want policing of the internet by the government- deciding what "lawful" sites you can go to? Do you want the government to restrict internet access? OR do you want your freedom to access what you want when you want to?
Our Founding Fathers had strong beliefs and made statements regarding freedoms.
"Without Freedom of Thought there can be no such Thing as Wisdom; and no such Thing as Public Liberty, without Freedom of Speech."
Benjamin Franklin, writing as Silence Dogood, No. 8, July 9, 1722
"If the freedom of speech is taken away then dumb and silent we may be led, like sheep to the slaughter."
George Washington
"But a Constitution of Government once changed from Freedom, can never be restored. Liberty, once lost, is lost forever. "
John Adams, letter to Abigail Adams, July 17, 1775
"Those who stand for nothing fall for anything." - Alexander Hamilton
That is just a few of them.
Let me know what you think.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Saturday, May 16, 2009
No post since February
Where have I been? Living life and working ALOT. This economy is tough right now and layoffs are happening everywhere. 3 layoffs happened at my job and everyone has been pitching in and working to fill the work of the 3 that were let go. Let's just say that I've been putting in more hours than I signed up for. But it's all good. Not so good for the kids and hubby. Supposed to get out of work at 5:30 every day. Rarely does that happen. Ugh!!!
I've been following American Idol all season long. Just not blogging about it.
Danny Gokey did not make the finals. That did not make me happy. But, with that being said....I "love" Kris Allen more so than Adam Lambert. So.....you see where my votes are going!! I only vote when it gets down to this point in the show. Danny will do just fine. He will be on the radio in the next year for sure.
American Idol concert is in August and my daughter wants to go. Hmmmmm. Pondering that one. We shall see.
Well...gonna go lay down for a while. My allergies are kicking my butt and my head is pounding.
I'll be back soon.......
I've been following American Idol all season long. Just not blogging about it.
Danny Gokey did not make the finals. That did not make me happy. But, with that being said....I "love" Kris Allen more so than Adam Lambert. So.....you see where my votes are going!! I only vote when it gets down to this point in the show. Danny will do just fine. He will be on the radio in the next year for sure.
American Idol concert is in August and my daughter wants to go. Hmmmmm. Pondering that one. We shall see.
Well...gonna go lay down for a while. My allergies are kicking my butt and my head is pounding.
I'll be back soon.......
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
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